Saturday, 27 February 2016

I am okey

                     

When you are sixteen and you feel like dying because of something and all you ever wanna do at that times is to tear out your veins.

They tell me that everything will be okey but they dont tell me what i want to hear.

They dont tell me;--

That it is okey to not want to be a person sometimes; maybe i can be a piece of pizza or a burger or a justin bieber(?)

They dont tell me;--

That it is okey to feel tired all the ways to my bone; to feel tired both physical and mental.

They dont tell me;--

That i am allowed to cry until i cant breath anymore.

Or

I dont have to get out of bed if dont want too (but still i have too because school ugh)

They always tell me that everything will be okey but despite all of this they forgot to remind me that i will be okey too.

I dont even know why i write this entry
But if you are reading this entry i just want to let you know,

When your heart is shattering into a million pieces it is okey to spill everything out. Please, dont bear it by your ownself.
You are human and i am a human. We both have a feelings and i know how it feels to bottle up all the emotions to ourselves because we dont have anyone to share it with, it hurts as hell.
We cannot be strong for all the times.
Some day, the walls we build may broke but it is okey.
But still, dont forget to gather all the strength again because life goes on.
We cannot be sad for all the time!
Keep on going to be that happy, strong person that people thought we were.
Life is sad but its not all that bad! Cherish every moment in your life, spread love to people around you. Be kind and stay positive! You are loved. :)

Tq, entri merapu repu repa entah apa apa ok sayonara hikshuks





Tuesday, 9 February 2016

Kecelaruan emosi

Hai ain is back !! 😊😊😁😁😁
Lama dah tak menulis kat blog, rindu.
Sekarang ni aku rasa macam numb? Sad? Lonely? Aceycey bhahaha . sorry la baru bangun tidur emosi tak stable lagi but for sure aku rasa sejuk gila sampai rasa macam nak demam huhuhu

Entah lah nak mak tak tahu nak story pasal apa. Kan best jadi cik epal duk throwback cerita pasal vacation dia je huhuhu..

Emmm,,,
Setiap kali balik bermalam je mesti aku rasa tak nak dah balik sahut, nak pindah.. Rasa macam tak sanggup dah nak study kat situ rasa macam entahlah rasa macam nak pergi sekolah baru sebab sahut is so boring and no fun? Hey ! What is wrong with ain nadhirah ni

I better change the topic sbb ttbe rasa nak nangis lewlsss

Ok hari ni aku dah berjaya khatam semua ep drama high society bhahahahaha tp nak lagi nk lagi ep yoon ha dgn joon ki. Dua orang ni sweet sangat la. Joon ki ni macam gentle gila please let me meet someone like joon ki huhuhuhu

Disebabkan aku dah berazam lepas siap tgk drama tu aku nak start buat homework so lepas maghrib tadi aku start la buat addmath siket lps tu aku sakit kepala then aku tidur and adik aku dtg tgk vid dgm volume nya mcm nak pecah speaker aku pun apa lagi mengamuk ah eyyy geram!!!

Aku paling benci tak suka tahap paling tak suka orang kacau aku tidur sebab aku susah gila kot nak boleh tidur sekali kau kacau aku fikir aku boleh sambung tidur balik ke eyyyy kenapa rasa nak nangis sokmo ni aiiiiiiii

Ok lah i better stop dulu esok ke,bila bila rajin kita tulis entri lagi. Assalamualaikum uolsss bye ! And, gong xi fa cai for those who celebrate. ok bajet ad penganut agama buddha baca blog aku bahhahaahaha